Hard spot

Following Tuesday's wake up call tutorial I spent Wednesday writing structures and examining my material.
Today I have been trying out the structure I wrote and it looks like I have about 35 minutes of material which follow on and build into something.
Caroline came to observe part of the run...and she also questioned the same thing that Kate questioned...Am I going for slow and measured (read largely boring). Caro reckoned she was questioning everything because I seem so low in confidence. I'm just not sure of the material, I can't break out of this mode. Dorothy pointed out that I felt this way last year about Garland and it was a big success!
I need to get the wheels, latch and handle on the door fixed up before I can go much further with rehearsing the movement sequences.
There was reference to Aine Phillips and Donna Rutherford in my tutorial so I'm going to look again at their work and figure out where i sit.
I'm also typing up all my written texts so I can start to get them off paper and experiment with supping them up.
Arrrgh, am I always this underconfident in my ability?