Things are really starting to pick up now, I'm nervous (no Sh*t Sherlock) but I know I can do this. It is merely a case of being super energised onstage and having a really clear plan of what the journey through the performance is and how I want the audience to come with me and experience it.

Not really any time to write, to busy doing, but reflection time is coming soon...

I'VE GOT IT!!!

People want to see the show and think, What an amazing performer, not she has a lovely quality!
I can do this, but Roberts right, it's all about dynamic range!

(Dis)Organisation

Right, having wasted most of the morning (did get the mailshot off though), now is the time to make a list of what needs done, priorities and allocate all my time between now and the show.

I need to:

Learn how to walk like John Wayne (maybe talk to Bex)
Make a paper swallow badge
Make a paper holster and belt?
Make a paper apron?
Decide whether to draw or cut out images for the Res Expert
Draw/cut out images for the flip chart
Draw out the lettering for song
Practice teaching the song, clarify what I'm gonna say
Fix text for Is this Scotland?
Experiment with coming out of the door more rapidly, different characters, different modes
Edit the explanation text
LEARN LINES!!!!
Clean out the cage and room, takes all extraneous stuff home

Making stuff is a priority. Need to sort out the shed too!!
Need to have the flip chart ready for Roberts tutorial at 5pm.
Work on lines at any given opportunity

Showing comes Home

I feel so much better having shown to an audience today. I forget that most of what I enjoy most is interaction with the audience. Following Andrew's comments in my Arches proposal feedback I think I really need to question this and whether I'm getting a true picture of working a crowd or whether I have had it easy with a crowd that know me. last year I was determined to make a show that could stand alone outwith the course, have I abandoned this idea this year?

It is a really interesting question, about audience, becasue I think part of the thing I have suffered from during this process is relying on other people's opinions. I need to find a new way of generating material and then doing audience experiments after that material is sort of fixed or in its infancy.

Monday Monday Mode

Had some time in Room 1 this morning which allowed me to go through the script and make changes. So I have decided to spend this afternoon with the script, adding all text in, learning lines and making sense of the throughline of the piece.

Problems problems, the only space in the Drama school on thursday is V2 for a couple of hours...I feel like this whole tutorial thing has been botched and despite the fact that I really want to show to Robert, its marred by not having the set, the right size of space. I really need to do a walkround of T4 and get used to the length...how do people who tour their performances get away with this?

Having felt hideously lethargic and guilty over the weekend, and getting up late this morning I feel a lot better for beginning again. Looking at the script makes me realise there is something to work with, to rehearse, to improve. Now I know that I have to be working or at least thinking on it full time until tech time.

Hot and Cold

Finally completed my ground plan and submitted it today...only two days late (sometimes I feel like I'm flying by the seat of my pants and I don't know anything, and I can't believe I'm even making this show and its all a little too overwhelming!)

School of Drama Open day today...so I sat at the info booth and started to address the mail out envelopes. Nobody has helped me,its too confusing because the mailout list are outdated and mostly missing the addresses. I went to assist Debby at the Question and Answer session and when I came back three people were just standing around. I said, did the mail out get done? They said I didn't understand the instructions, which list did you work from?

ARRRRRGH!

However, got some really positive feedback from the Arches creative residency panel on my failed proposal tonight. It turns out there were 23 applicants, 1 chosen project and four people invited for feedback, so I didn't do too badly considering my proposal was fairly last minute.
The most interesting aspect of the feedback was to focus on my own role within projects or productions, and to shed the language of the course...(this was a little unclear, because they largely liked my writing style but disliked task etc. They seemed to think that the language would become obselete after I graduated and that I just needed to be careful how I described my projects and why I wanted to commit to reworking something that was essentially finished)

Last of the third year showings tonight, I am looking forward to it.
Now I just got to sort out when I'm showing what to whom.

After my marathon day (of practicality, after the first disasterous spell) yesterday I was tired!
Which in some respects follows on to my justification for still being in bed at 10.15am.
Despite my morning in the space, I have not been very good today. I have cleared up the East text, I looked at the beginning and how I get into the North stuff but it's still not finalised
I have realised that the thing with the door needs to be clearer, if I make transformations when I step over its threshold how am I showing these? I haven't set up the convention clearly enough, so I can't break it. This requires a lot more thought, and some experimental before its ready to rehearse! and I'm running out of time.

I STILL CAN'T FIND MY SHOES!!! I am going to look for them again, and then I'm accusing someone of stealing them...