Too Many Things

Had a reasonably good day in the space today...the pressure of doing one thing per day is enough I think. It is super difficult to assess where I'm at in terms of process/material making. I think I'm behind, but am determined not to beat myself up about it. If I'm honest I'm not working as hard as I should, but I will redouble my efforts to create as well as think about stuff.

I'm buzzing with ideas, creative juices are flowing. I must:
1. Go to the Art School library and look at the books/dissertations that I sourced the other day
2. Start thinking about relevant artists (Moda residents, Ambramovich and Teching Hseih) so that I can place my work and be inspired by/create tasks from their work and be influenced by their thinking. I hope this will allow me to go beyond the obvious cliches of my own limited research.
3. Consider this story thing...the stories people can tell of home...translated into texts (obvious but a place to start perhaps). Wednesday is my first interview, with Sadah.
4. Get that house mail box up before the course meet so that I can make an announcement! People, please leave observations, annecdotes, definitions, words or pictures regarding the subject of home in my mail box. Fank oo!
5. The door...exercises around it.
6. Lets try these characterisations...if they are god awful then they can be binned before anyone can see them...if they are alright they can be worked up for performance...but I have to begin somewhere...maybe write some texts as a way in...costume
7. Some immediate durational performances that challenge my own understanding of living? Permission to be in a toilet cubicle for a day...childhood thought of staying locked in that small place with everything I need...eating in the toilet and the social unease...people being able to sit in the cubicle next to me and ask me questions, talk to me about space etc. Consider the tent and living outside. It's dangerous territory but a cardboard box? Can I sleep overnight in the Academy? Walking all night in the city.
8. Work up South and East texts...contact Ros about accents and voice inflections (email sent 30th Jan). get into the inflections and cite real voices rather than imagined/your own versions
9. Record the relevant people saying the texts to work on accents and personal character voices.

Kate said today that she wants to see the questioning of home in my piece. My particular statement of, 'If I can just find out what it is, then maybe I can get it!' is what is interesting to her. I'm also infatuated with the idea of North South East and West as being other to where I'm at. Everything else is directional and relevant to my global positioning...I'm just where I'm at, maybe I'll be somewhere else tomorrow but everything else is something I can only get at! Maybe home is where I lay my hat, home is the ground I occupy...do I want to occupy more space, or less. (Previously my aesthetic for Garland was to create a small intimate space in a large space...because I was afraid of tiny little me not being able to cover the distance. Tramway 4 is such a distinct long space, I need to think about how I use it).

Action Smaction...Traction, there is a lovely word

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