When you live on borrowed time in someone else's space you have a renewed sense of responsibilty. I ate cereal in Natalie's bed today but I felt really guilty and I was very careful...would I have been so careful in my own bed? Since I have never had a place of my own, despite renting space for 5 years, is this why I haven't learned to take responsibility for myself?

Had an at home day today...very comfortable and lazy in preparation for having to work really hard tonite. Bring on the New Year I say, perhaps I will shake myself from this wierd day to day existence and make something happen this year.

It's not been a bad time, but it can be so much better!

Seasons greetings and fun times to all

Love Helen*