An aside

I'm looking for inspiration today...I feel a little wierd, maybe I'm frustrated (?) but I know I'm avoiding reality by being alone... I have really latched on to the idea that I will live alone for the next 6 months. I'm keen to embark on this challenge (I largely feel that I have been on my own for 3 and and half years in Glasgow so I want to make a conscious choice to seperate myself. I think it will make me a more social person.)

Normally when I'm looking for inspiration via the internet I look at artist's websites (everyone from Nic Green to Jan Fabre). But I remembered that one of the first year students (CTP) kept an Alternative Performance Journal about Inspiration. I liked it very much, it reminded me of my Corali RPJ where I wrote a list of things that I had liked that day (thereby completely avoiding critically assessing myself or the project). Ziggy wrote this:

[...)I refer to this state as "home". It is the state in which you find yourself familiar with, comfortable and trusting. The state outside of home is what I call the "void". It is a place where you see things as strange and unpredictable and few choose to dwell in that place for long because they subconciously know that if they do the void will ultimately become home and vice versa. But it is the journey between those two points that inspires me. It does so because it looks as though, when we gaze throughout the history of man, that these journeys are seamlessly interwoven with the human nature. I call it a journey even though it is often more a transition from one school of thought to another because at some point, like a journey, the decision is made to embark upon it.Why do we change jobs? Divorce? Stop eating meat?I beliveve that these decisions are always egocentrical. It is our need to venture from home to the void and back and collect information about ourselves. If you knew how you'd act in anger you would avoid it. Are there many movies you have watched twice?
http://theinspirationofziggy.blogspot.com/2006/11/day-eighteen.html

Thanks Ziggy